Sometimes we didn't see how God works on us as a Christian sometimes I never now how God works on me, as trials,tribulation come to me, sometimes I want to cry and ask why He did it to me.One of my experience is when I was a third year highschool student. As a honor roll student I want to become one of the respective,honorable and popular student of our class but not only in our class but in the whole campus at all, but fate and time and also myself as well didn't match. I began to fell in my grades, my studying habits become irregulated and I myself became bored at all to continue what am I aiming for, other honorable classmates in our class continue to soar high in their objectives in life, but me as the only boy that belong to that honorable class was began to fell I don't know why but theres something or big thing or lesson that God wants to teach on me but not only in me but to my family as well.
After the third year class we have, I dont know what happened on me but I think it's because of all things that I have on my mind,which I called...Negative strongholds, strongholds which can destroy and sink my life, it is because also of all failures I got when I was third year highschool which plant and always recall in my mind my parents began to panic because they notice that I began to became depressed I dont know what happened to my world at that time,the only thing that I have in my mind is to slept in my bedroom.My world began to fell down and it came that I'VE GOT to be depressed, my parents look at me lonely and full of big question in their minds.For me I think they ask in their minds why all this happen to us, "WE always go to church and active in our ministry".And me as their son I also ask my mind why that big trial came to us.Me myself can be describe as a car without any direction that time I don't know what God wants to happen to me and to our family, my family also was so very affected because of that things that happen to me. There was a time that me and my mother came to a psychologist to ask what happened scientificall to me, as we walk I even didn't know what are we doing, I think we got to go in a mall, as we enter the room there's many thing ask to me...they ask if I always worried about my psysical appearance and as a whole to my self especiall to my abilities. These things was all about my depression, depressin because I do not achive my goals and plan during my highschool life, But after I've got cured for how many months WE REALIZED that GOD is always there in all times of trials,problems,tribulations and challenges in our life, as it said in PSALMS 23:1 (THE LORD IS OUR SHEPHERD WE SHALL NOT WANT), these means that in all times we need care and love, in times we feel alone, and cold HE always there to huge US with HIS strong arms carry us when we cant, awake us in times our mind crossing many streets decisions but me myself I choose JESUS to hold MY LIFE FROM THE PAST, PRESENT AND UNTIL THE END OF THE WORLD COMES...GOD NEVER MOVES AND NEVER DO ANYTHINGS UNLESS IT IS WORTH FOR US,God LOVES us and cares for us all the days goes by...
